4/5 - Do you create your own thoughts? - dailysojshot

kumir_al-stabya · 4/15/2025, 1:33:53 PM · permalink

Ill try and be as detailed as possible but some things are just impossible for me to put into words.  
  
Firstly if I'm not consciously thinking of something there is always a background noise which is usually some chorus playing of something I have heard recently, even if its music I don't like and didn't want to listen to. Currently it is a small section of the song bliss by red sun rising, a song that I heard earlier today.  
  
It seems as though my thoughts aren't created but are a continuation of a sensory input or memory, any sensory input or memory that I am consciously aware of will bring forth related thoughts and further thoughts linked to them. For example I read your post, this leads me to think about the premise of your questions and ways upon which I can answer them, I think of several different ways to describe my answers then type what I feel would be comprehensive to someone who reads it. This whole scenario is reconstructed in my mind as a scene that I am narrating, and leaves me open to many tangents of thought such as: why are you even asking? Are you asking because you have a hypothesis? Or are just collecting data points? Perhaps you are just curious as to how others will answer? If you are collecting data points, why? If you are just asking, why? Are you a scientist? Or are you just some guy? This makes it hard for me to stay focused on the actual subject and even harder to translate esoteric ideas as I see them, into something that someone could understand as words.  
  
I can also lose train of the first thought I was thinking about, as I end up in several layers of possible logical deductions and the implications of such, all memory of it will just go and most related thought with it, the only thought remaining will be whatever step of logical reasoning I was at, it feels almost like a pain and is extremely jarring, sometimes I can infer what it was I was thinking about and it'll come back as if I never forgot it. Even this leads me to think of reasons why this would happen, and visualise what kind of causal interactions would take place for this to happen, my first guess is that it is due to some kind of short term memory overload. While I hear myself speak of what I have wrote and want to write, I always imagine the implications of what my internal voice is saying over narrated images and scenarios.  
  
While I am not in control of how the first thought comes as it is derived from my senses and memories which can be almost anything nor can I fully control contingent thoughts, I am fully in control of what path of reasoning I want to take and how I want to shape them, my thoughts aren't inherently good or bad, I can just as easily see a word like bunny, which causes me to imagine a scene of a rabbit in a meadow. I am first an observer then I assume the perspective of the rabbit, I see the blades of grass and smell the flowers, I can trace what sources of memory are being used for my imagined scenes the grass for example when I focus on it, is a distant memory of grass with an almost indescribable feeling of knowing, it feels similar to a pit in ones stomach but in my minds eye and far less potent. Sometimes they even lead to memories that I had forgotten such as a memory of my childhood friends pet rabbit.  
  
To juxtapose this I have seen plenty of ukranian/russian drone videos I almost always empathise with the person getting droned as it is one of the most cowardly ways to kill someone, I imagine myself in their position the pain they must feel the dread, the fear and ponder how painful the final moments are and what it feels like to fade to black, then every time I think this person has died for the greed of others.  
  
For clarity it is not only one thing I see when I imagine a scene it is the best approximation of what everything should look like based upon my own understanding of reality. It is as if my minds eye reproduces my real life perception and places it in imagined worlds as what I am not focused on will be faded, just liked while I type this only this part of my screen is in focus the world around is faded on a inverse square of the focal point.  
  
TLDR   
My thoughts are:
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daelrorevlis · 4/7/2025, 1:09:08 AM · permalink

Perfect Peace through presence. Holding every thought in captivity, examining it, not identifying with it, and letting it go by. Observing the world in front of me, without a care for a thing outside of Truth.  
  
When you don't identify with the thoughts, when you understand that anxiety, depression, %%anger%% -- which is the worst emotion to have -- they're all working against you. Even the good thoughts, the ones that pick you up when you should've never been down in the first place about anything -- just prepare you for another fall. Life continues on, logical. God wants you to have perfect peace, and you can achieve it by detaching from thoughts.  
  
Once you realize you are not your thoughts and that they don't come from you, life becomes dramatically easier on you. --There's hardly a 'You' there, so much as an amalgamation of .... how did you put it? Experiences and Observations?  
  
Ultimately, 'correction feels like judgement to those who are in love with their Sin'.   
I'm not telling anyone if they are right or wrong -- I did tell you that 'my explanation makes more sense than your's' , but I haven't said that to anyone else. I'm not sure why you're so angry, but it's something you've had since before I joined this board, two or three days ago.  
  
Your persona is established here, apparently so much, that you wouldn't lower yourself to fleshing out your 'spirituality and faith' to a lowly scrub like me, right?  I should already know where it is and how to navigate to the place where you so proudly and succinctly explain your 'spirituality and beliefs', in your eyes. The reality is, I am only present. I have no emotional attachment to any thought, because I do not identify with thoughts.  
  
By this long-winded way of weaving through the nuances of the implications, if you read this reply in the whole context - you would therefore be able to conclude that Satan, *does not*, and *cannot* control me, if what I've typed here is true.  
  
To me.  
  
  
Now I have my 'I stated clearly you can find my statements on faith on this website.' post, 'logical'. Now in the future, how do I reference this post to the other noobs once I'm as established as you are on this board?

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